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Monday, March 8, 2010
Quit Bothering Me.. ALL OF YOU!!

Here I am.. seething in anger as I am writing this blog entry, trying to vent all my anger and frustration here. I feel so fucking fed up with everyone, well not everyone.. just a few particular people. I am already feeling pretty fucked up and I don't wanna have to deal with another comment or remark.

I am so sick of people asking me to help them do stuffs. Not that I wanna be selfish, but these are matters that they are capable of accomplishing themselves, and yet they would still bombard me with requests to help them. Argh. This is the final staw and I really can't take it anymore.

Just tell them no, you would think. Easy peasy. But it's not easy for me to say no to a friend. I don't know how to reject them without sounding mean or selfish and it is definitely not about trying to be nice nor putting on an act.

You know, life would really be easier if I do not have to deal with all this shit. It's not as if I have so much spare time to dwell on such seemingly trivial issues. Bah.

Sunday, March 7, 2010
I don't like what i'm doing right now!

Instead of completing my absolutely boring, time-consuming and energy-draining ecology lab report as I should be, here I am, blogging. It has struck me once again, as I was typing out my report, that if this is what I wanted. As in, being a biologist or researcher, doing research, read-ups, and of course, writing a lab report thereafter. The thought of the drudgery of the doing all of the above is really rather repulsive. Also, I can't help questioning myself "what the fuck am I doing in Scienc" at times like these.

Sigh. It's not like I totally despise what I am studying right now.. but I just don't see myself as being in this line upon graduation. I don't think I wanna be a researcher.. heck. I don't even LIKE lab sessions. I'm not like some of my course mates who would get excited when they obtain some positive lab results. No. Most of the time I'll be thinking.. "when can we go...". Lol. So how can I ever be a scientist or researcher, one who'll practically attain orgasm when they've painstakingly achieve some successful experiment? Like.. "Oh yeah.. that's the way baby!! That's the way how a DNA's suppose to react. The restriction enzymes did a fantastic job man!! Yeah..."

So.. what I'm worried about now would be that what am I gonna be when I graduate? I know I don't wanna be a researcher, and I used to wanna be an anchorman.. or woman.. but that dream has been shattered ever since I got into Science Fac. Hmm.. so right now I guess the only thing that I would love to do would be to start my own line of cosmetics. NOT like silkygirl, more of like at par with maybelline or better, revlon. Muahahhaa. Then I can be a lao ban niang. But that's just me building sand castle in the air la.. I don't even know how to go about doing.

Hmm.. time to go back to my lab report.. I shall get back to this post once I'm more free=)

And here's some pics to spice up my blog before I go.. if not it'll look so boring with just srtings of words (not that anyone would read.. but lao niang like ar).


Taken at oo. Went there to celebrate Carmen's bday.


Room mates!!